This summer has been super busy and fall seems to be the same. Don’t get me wrong…I love it. Sometimes…I just want to sleep though.
Something I Learned: Whenever a pregnant women suffers from organ damage like heart attack, the fetus sends stem cells to the organ helping it to repair.
I never would have realized that the fetus could take care of the mother as much as she takes care of him. I’m sure it all has to do with the drive of survival, but I like to look at it as love between the two already.
Moment of Joy: I got to spend time with a good friends this weekend, just having a great day walking around and day drinking. Who doesn’t love day drinking?! Lol.
Fears: I feel like this is always the hardest. My therapist just told me she thinks I’m codependent, and now I’m wondering if there really is something wrong with me. She told me it’s common; most people from my background experience this. But I feel…..defective. May be I am the problem.
One Thing I Want to Change: The way I find comfort. Like most, I turn to my vices and I’d love to be able to be a “healthy” adult. I’d like to be able to feel my emotions without running and trying to self sooth in healthy manners.
Something I’m Thankful For: Being able to put a name with my disorder, panic disorder. It took so long to finally go get help because I felt like I should be able to handle my panic attacks. Finally talking to someone about it, truly helped and helped me understand it.
Embarrassing Truth: I the renaissance and spent this past weekend there. Not only did I enjoy a day of mead and shouting “Huzzah!,” but I also ran into the one and only Gandalf the Grey. Nothing nefarious happened, so I’m assuming that no adventures were had. No dragons, no orcs, no all-saving Eagles appeared. Just an ordinary day in Middle Earth, I guess.
Gandalf was way too into his food and pipe and wanted nothing to do with taking me on an adventure. However, I do hope I’ll see him on my doorstep in the near future. *Pick me! Pick me!*