**Just a warning, this is really rambly and not very fluid. Sorry all, but you’ll hear why.**
Last night, I couldn’t sleep. I was up tossing and turning until at least 2 a.m. Naturally, I fell asleep JUST a few hours before my alarm was set to go off. I find when I don’t get the proper amount of sleep, I end up in a weird head space. I wouldn’t say in a more “depressed” outlook but run down. I’m more unresponsive….if that makes sense. I’m not in a good mood, not bad. I’m not happy or sad…more pensive. Days like this I mull things over.
I have the gym tonight, and I know I’m not going to be at my best. My lifting won’t be on point, and I’m pretty sure my form itself will be “ehhh” at best. That’s part of the rating scale, right? I will do my best, don’t get me wrong, but I’m not expecting my best to be 100% today. My eyes hurt, and I’m just too tired to stand up straight. Haha. The gym itself hasn’t been as cathartic as it normally is. I feel more frustrated lately. I’m not sure if it’s because it feels like work or if I’m just not motivated. May be it’s because I can’t seem to get a good night’s sleep.
The worst part about missing a night’s sleep is that it lasts for days. It doesn’t matter how much you sleep the next day/night; you always end up exhausted. Your body just can’t catch up, and until you do, you’re just not yourself. You are more like a zombie that instead of brains, just wants your bed. You aren’t up or down, happy or sad. You just are.
It’s crazy how much you don’t feel like yourself when you’re sleep deprived. I have some friends who end up really giddy, others who end up working in slow motion. I find I’m falling into the latter. My thought process isn’t quite on point. It’s actually probably the quietest my mind has been in a long time, and I’m just moving from task to task. It’s probably the most “present” I’ve ever been. I guess that’s a positive to not having sleep. Haha.
I read somewhere that driving without proper sleep is the equivalent to driving under the influence. While I’m not sure how true that is, I do believe it has some credibility. Have you ever driven somewhere, and once you arrive, you don’t remember parts of the journey? That happened to me this morning. I got to work, and barely remembered the commute. Your body just operates out of habit. It’s extremely frightening now that I think about it. I know it’s not uncommon, and many people experience it. But I’m pretty sure that only makes it worse. How many drivers are operating that way in the morning?
What do you do when you haven’t been able to sleep? What do you do to get through the day? Is there anything that helps you perk up and have energy? Your tips and help would be greatly appreciated.